Have you ever let go of something that didn't really fit into your life? Made a conscious decision to no longer try to squeeze something into your awareness that drained your energy? Do you remember that moment when you did? And how life suddenly seemed... lighter?
The bigger picture
That is, because you were trying to add something to your life, but couldn't let it become a part of you. All you wanted was for that particular segment of your life to do what you expect from it and not have to worry about it. You wanted it to "work for you", be a part of you, but instead it put your mind in a loop and prevented you from achieving something better.
Every time you attempted to add something to your life that didn't belong there, it was as if you were trying to attach a wrong puzzle piece to your own personal puzzle. It really made no difference how hard you tried, because your persistence wasn't the key for change. Your efforts were not focused on creating an increased state of clarity. You weren't driven by the accomplishment of a bigger, more truthful experience of living. All you created was a struggle between what you wanted and what you could not have.
When a concept in your mind doesn't resonate with your deepest desires, then that concept has an incredibly difficult time trying to stay alive in your mind. Your mind favors to reject it, because it contains the power to create a lot of internal resistance.
Unlike the truth, which is a reliable piece of information, an untruth can only remain vital with your consent. Without your approval, it sits there and attempts to become a part of the concept of "you", even though it fails to get connected internally. In other words: when you try to create an idea about yourself, that has nothing to do with who you are, then you are using your will to create an image of yourself that isn't meant to be. And that is what drains your energy, because failing to succeed is a huge demotivator. As soon as you stop trying to convince yourself that one day that piece will fit, and accept the truth, then the struggle is over. And more energy comes available.
So perhaps the easiest way to think of the current amount of truth and clarity in your life, is as a partially finished puzzle with all of its pieces already meshing neatly together. That is your strong side, composed of an undefined number of already existing truths. These are the ideas you hold about yourself which make total sense. You don't question whether or not they belong there, because you experience how they "work for you". You wouldn't want to trade those truths, because they fuel you with the energy you need.
From that point of view, the big question then becomes: which pieces are you trying to add to your already existing bigger picture at the moment? Who are the people and what are the experiences and thoughts you're trying to keep alive in your daily life?
Many people aren't very concerned with this question, which is also reflected in the way they live their lives. They put in tons of energy in a job they don't like, struggle to keep certain relationships alive, persist in maintaining a diet that cannot possibly make them healthier or any other pointless activity. And all they do is wish and hope that one day all of it will magically begin "to work for them". But it doesn't and it never will. All they receive in return for their efforts is a feeling of exhaustion, because what they attempt to connect to, has no real value. On a deeper level they know they don't want to be connected to certain experiences, but on the surface they're reluctant to admit it to themselves.
The fact is, if you choose to imagine yourself to be someone you are not, then it becomes impossible to grow. It becomes impossible to append the missing parts of your life in order to progress towards a better vision of your own bigger picture.
Letting go
Albert Einstein once said : "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." In other words, it is madness to force your will upon trying to accomplish something which isn't meant to be. After all, the object of building a puzzle is to see the bigger picture at the end, isn't it? And isn't the beauty of living to be able to explore and figure out what you want, need and love? To get to see your bigger picture?
For me, living truthfully means focusing on what works for me and defocusing on what acts against me. To get connected to what provides me the energy I need and to disconnect myself from that which drains my personal battery. It makes no difference whether it is a job, a person or even a thought. If it steals my energy, I don't consider it to be a welcome guest in my awareness.
So be mindful of the fact that experiencing yourself as a happy person, bursting with energy, or an unhappy and emotionally drained wreck, is largely the result of what you consciously choose to experience. And those choices have a direct consequence on the amount of energy you have available to you. I dare even say that the amount of truth in your life determines how much energy you have. Or think of it this way: whatever steals your energy, has a hidden truth to it and it's up to you to find out what it is.
To find the truth, I try to be aware of how everything around me affects me and I consider the amount of energy I have to be a guide. If a rapid burst of energy is delivered from a decision to no longer connect to something that doesn't work, I consider it to be a wise decision. But if I feel my personal energy fading away, it means I made a bad decision and I'm not adding real value to my life by staying connected. In other words: then it's time for me to let it go.
Question Yourself.
How well do you want to know who you are? How much energy do you want to have available to you? Do you believe it can be more than what you have available right now? Are you willing to change, to get to know a stronger side of yourself, if it means letting go of what you're currently believing? Are you willing to let go of what you believe to be a must-have, even though it makes you feel miserable? Can you accept the fact that your personal puzzle isn't complete yet and that growing means searching for the pieces you need to increase your clarity?
Or would you prefer to not know what you're really capable of experiencing? Either way... it's up to you
